ok...so i think that xangas are the dumbest things ever and i will prolly never write another entry, but i spent a lot of time writing this so it would not be offensive to anyone and then it would not fit on my profile so i decided that there was no way that i stayed up doing this and not using it so here it is:( i really do think that xangas are dumb though and i can not believ that i am actually posting something!!!  ahhhhhhhhhhhhh what is the world coming to)

so i just got back from a concert with brandon at the agora and it was sweet!  while i was there i realized so much...about people in general...i saw some people there who had broken up a while ago after dating for four years and the way they handled things just astounds me...i try so hard to let go that trying not to think about it makes me think even more... yes, i trust God to deal with everything, and yes, that makes things a little easier, but it is still hard...i saw people there who were in love... people who could be themselves with no facade at all.  it reminded me a lot of the past and how much i miss so many things, but then i started thinking...and what good is missing something?  why do we miss things, they are changing every moment...it is just so hard to forget...in my case it is hard to forget bc of promises...i am not one who likes promises a whole lot...but when i was in love with someone, i made a promise that i wasn't sure about, but was determined to keep...on march 24,2003, i had never known love before, never felt like people really cared about me...until then...it all hit me...recently i have been looking through old stuff for my scrapbook and it is so hard to stay motivated and not just go to my room and cry when i have to see things that i wrote to her and pictures of us that just bring it all back...i know that God puts people in our life to learn from... but when is the learning over... how do you know if you are going to learn more... or if it is like your grade school teachers and you just leave elementary school and never learn another thing from them...i’m personally not really sure…but I am not ready to think that I will never learn anything again…there has to be more to this life…but again, I am not sure if letting go is what I am supposed to be getting out of this… I really hope not…please leave some comments telling your thoughts on the subject…I am going to leave it with a quote from the ultimate sitcom ever… “maybe part of learning to love, is learning to let go” ~The Wonder Years

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